I am the first to admit that while I am a practitioner, I am not perfect and I still have to do my own work on a daily basis. This is one of those great big AHA moments for me.
I have been working a program by Margaret Lynch called the 7 Levels Of Wealth Manifestation. I am a person who lives and breathes the chakras and to be quite honest, I thought I had my chakras all figured out. WRONG!
I heard an interview with Margaret and knew I had to have this program. She addressed the chakras and how they actually function in day to day life and how the old stories/vows locked inside of them can block all aspects of your life. I needed this as I felt it could help me help my own clients and myself.
What I wasn't prepared for was this: As I tapped on old childhood issues, I was still totally NUMB. I could not bring up the feelings to save my life. I'm really good at beating myself up when I don't get things right and I was sure there was something wrong with me but I was noticing shifts in my life for the better anyway.
I continued working the program and kept going back through the chakras over and over. Each time something shifted and each time I found myself moving forward in a positive direction. Then while listening to one of the recording Margaret talked about F YOU tapping. I noticed even as she spoke about I could feel the anger bubbling up, so I tapped and I began F YOU'ing to anyone who came to mind even if if didn't make sense in the moment. I honored there had to be something subconscious if that person came up. I went to the issues of my childhood and the damn burst. Anger, rage, hurt, sadness all of it and I just kept tapping and telling those people what I thought of them, what they did, how it felt and how it still can hinder me as a grown woman.
I realized, I am really good at getting angry when someone hurts or wrongs someone I love but I wasn't valuing myself enough to feel those feelings for ME. I had learned through years of abuse to numb those feelings, to not really let myself totally feel them because there was nothing I could do to change things then. Now, I am safe. Now I am able to process those feelings and validate them for myself.
The day after I did this, I went to a party where normally, I would have stuck to my own crowd of friends because it was bit out of my comfort zone. This time, I actually spent little time with my usual crowd, made new friends and was asked by a couple I had not met before that night to officiate their wedding in September. (I am also an ordained minister who on occasion will pull that out and perform a wedding ceremony). The ability to feel these feelings address them and honor myself and my feelings in this shifted me for the better.
EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) work is not always pretty or easy but it is so worth it in the end.
While I will be integrating what I learn from this program into my own practice, if you want it from the master then I HIGHLY recommend that you invest in yourself and get this program from Margaret Lynch. Here is the link again: 7 Levels Of Wealth Manifestation
In the meantime remember that your feelings do count and are worth standing up for.
Live With Passion
~Bel
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